Tomorrow...

March 10, 2014

As I sit here with a cat by my side, two small people are snoozing peacefully in the bedrooms down the hall.  Over three years ago the first small person arrived, all smiles and wonder.  5 months later, the second small person arrived…so tiny that even our little cat outweighed her.

Over three years of endless moments anywhere from overwhelming joy to almost unbearable frustration.  Over three years of worry, anger, happiness, concern, laughter, and what the hell did we do?  Over three years of constant fear that somehow, these wondrous small people would suddenly leave us without warning.  Over three years of wiping little faces, holding little hands, soothing little fears, comforting little owies and snuggling little bodies.  Over three years of sitting up late nights, trips to the emergency room, making sure everyone was fed, clothed, and comfortable.

Tomorrow, this all ends…

Tomorrow we head into court to officially adopt these two small people.  After years of postponements, rescheduled hearings, new goals, second, third and fourth chances…we finally get to call them our own.

For those of you who have followed along on this journey, it comes as a relief.  For us, it comes as miracle.  For the small people, well, I don’t know what it means to them.  Probably nothing right now but one day it will mean something….hopefully something good.

I don’t have anything witty or clever to say…I don’t have any ‘words of wisdom’ or deeply meaningful fact of life to pass on to others.

All I can say, is that tomorrow, we will officially become the parents of two small people.  Tomorrow we will officially have a son.  Tomorrow we will officially have a daughter.

So, as I sit here with a cat by my side, two small people are snoozing peacefully in the bedrooms down the hall.  They have no idea what they have done to our lives.  They have no idea how much they have changed us.  They have no idea that tomorrow will change their lives and ours forever.  All they know is that they have fuzzy animals to play with, grandparents who adore them and a mommy and a daddy who love them.

I think tomorrow will turn out to be a pretty good day….